.Tuesday, September 25, 2007 ' 8:41 AM Y
YOU ALL SERIOUSLY JUST DON"T UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL.
THIS IS THE SECOND TIME OF MY LIFE I HAVE EVER FELT MY HEART BEAT SO FAST.DO YOU KNOW THAT I KNEW IT WAS SOMETHING SPECIAL. SOMETHING I HAVE NEVER FELT FOR A LONG TIME. YOU TELLING ME I WAS CHILIDSH ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS. YES I HAVE ADMITTED MYSELF I KNOW I"M CHLIDSH. BUT I'M SORRY. I"M SORRY FOR HURTING YOU. I"M SORRY FOR DOING ALL THE STUPID THINGS. NOW I KNOW.
IN SCHOOL I KEPT THINKING ABOUT HIM. KEPT THINKING WHAT ARE THE FUNNIEST THINGS ABOUT HIM. WILFRED TELL ME HE GONG GONG RIGHT. I LIKE IT COS IT WAS CUTE.
I DID NOT CARE AT ALL IF HE WAS SOMEONE HANDSOME OR WHATEVER OR CUTE. I REALISED I LIKE HIM BECAUSE WHEN I WAS NEAR HIM, MY HEART BEATED REALLY FAST, IT HAS NEVER BEATED THAT FAST BEFORE. NOT EVER SINCE MY FIRST EX. NEVER.
AND YES I LIKED HIM THAT PERIOD WHEN I WAS 10 YEARS OLD, FROM THAT PERIOD I LOOKED UP TO HIM AS AN IDOL. I LOOKED UP TO HIM AS AN IDOL AND FEELINGS DEVELOPED. NOW YOU KNOW WHY SINCE TEN YEARS OLD LIAO.
HE FELT LIKE SOMEONE SPECIAL TO ME. I DON"T KNOW WHY. I JUST DON'T. I AM JUST SAYING.
IS HE EVER OR WILLING TO LET ME FIND OUT WHETHER IT IS TRUE LOVE? BECAUSE RIGHT NOW. I LOVE HIM REALLY BADLY THAT I THINKING OF HIM SINCE THE DAY I SAW HIM. IS IT LOVE? IT CANNOT BE A CRUSH BECAUSE IT HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE.
TELLING FROM MY HEART.. WHY DOES IT BEAT SO FAST. WHY. I WANNA KNOW WHY.
WHY DO I THINK OF HIM FROM THE DAY I SAW HIM UNTIL NOW.
CAN"T STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM
CAN"T STOP PICTURING HIM IN MY MIND?
LOOK. HAVE I EVER BEEN THIS PASSIONATE?
THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I AM WRITING A POST SO DEVOTED THAT I HAVE NEVER DONE IT IN MY LIFE.
AND Cheng wei,
look here for 5 years. 5 years back. you never realised how much i loved you? you never did. we got together for a week and just broke off. is that what you called saying that you love me so badly that you need me?
Look. you never granted me happiness. and you never will.
i.. just can't stop thinking. my heart can't stop beating that fast. is there really something wrong with me?
thank you for listening to my phone call. thank you for the advice. but i guess it may not be the same. my feelings will never change till the day he gets married. I SHALL PROVE IT. I SAY SOMETHING LIKE THIS AND I WILL PROVE IT.
DANCE FOR LIFE,
KAYA<3
For now i look and wait .
